4-13-12
A lot of people dont know about loving somebody and the shit you gotta change for it too work, shit I dont either lol. But these past couple months I done seen some shit and experienced some understanding ass shit. You gotta make ah sacrifice when you start to love somebody, you gotta make the decision as if you want to be with this person or what. If you do, than you have now depleted any chance you have in making your own decisions. Once you give your heart to someone else and open up to then, it is like you basically have accepted ah piece of them. So when you make decisions and choices you have to take your significant others feelings into account now. You now always have to think of how your decision will affect you AND her because it WILL affect the both of you. I see it as if you love somebody, no matter where they go, and what they do, they will always come back just because thats what love is. Its like ah unbreakable bond between two that cannot be tarnished by anyone but the two in the connection. Everything else is irrelevant at that point, they say nothing last forever… But that shit only is true when you let it be. I think two can be together as long as they choose to be. Its just the amount of effort and work you feel like putting in. Although, I don’t know shit about what I’m saying, you supposed to practice what you preach butttttt… Shit ah nigga trying lol. ✊ to yall…
4-10-12
You ever find somebody that just really completes the person you are and the person you be wanting to become? You ever met somebody that the first time you saw her it was like just… “Damn, how did god bless me so greatly today..”? I know somebody like that, someone who has always been there even when you didnt expect them to be.. When you have walked miles and miles and you just need someone and some place to just relax and wash off… When everybody has turned against you and she still right there witchu pushing you do better yourself and get past all of this. You would hope that you wouldnt fuck up something like that. But shit I did… Yall ever knew somebody that no matter what when you talk to them all you can do is just smile… Even through the fights you can still come out cheesin. Somebody who when you have the worst day ever and you call them to talk its like the worst day was put on pause because at that moment in time you feel like the happiest person alive. That shit crazy when you know somebody like that dawg. I know ah girl just like that. I love da lil thing too
4-9-12
Tonight I talked to one of the best, most important people i have ever known in my life. I fell in love with her and i made her mines on september 17th 2010, it was like ah feeling i have never experienced before… And i fucked up sooooo much since then and she still fucks with me. I dont really know what else love could possibly be… I dont love her because shes beautiful, nothing like that. I love her because i can act so damn foolish with her, i can honestly be my got damn self, flaws and all, around her. You dont meet people like that every day and i promise you that. You dont wake up in the morning everyday expecting to be greeted by the most beautiful thing on the planet . You know you love someone because when you have completely nothing but your got damn name, she still reassures you that you got her. Boy listen i swear thats only the greatest feeling in the world. Its about 4:20am and I can NOT stop thinking about her dawg… I fucked up real bad though. I lied, which is what I push not to do and I am ah hypocrite for that. But you just gotta over look and overcome situations like that to the best of your ability… I talked to her tonight, for ah very long time. I honestly feel like i fell in love again even though i was never out of it… Theres nobody in the world that makes me feel like she does except for my own got damn mother. I may be too young to say i wan marry this woman but lord help me baby cuz i want to wake up and go to sleep next to her. Fussing, fighting, arguing… I want it to be with her. I promise you i am trying my best to fix what i broke. But got damn it i have so much feelings on my mind right now… Gangsta ass nigga like me laying in my bed with got damn butterflys in my stomach i tell you. Shes not my girlfriend anymore, i fucked that up too. But got damn i will try my motherfucking heart out until i can work this shit… I promise you that…
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